Endless Sea

Miles apart and worlds away,
I hear you whisper, "please just stay."
Hug me, hold me, tell me good-bye,
Watch the tears fall as I begin to cry.
Kiss my cheek and tell me everything will be alright
Hold my hand until I disappear from sight.
You chase after me to catch one more glance,
You hope your farewell will get once more chance.
Slowly I wade through the cold icy sea,
Desperate to feel just a little more free.
My heart starts to race as I'm dragged down below,
Tangled and webbed in the strong undertow.
I'm tossed and I'm turned like a feather in the sky,
I sink deeper and deeper till I almost feel dry.
No panic or fear will seep through my pores
Only the soft murmur of joy will echo to the shores.
Your face flashes by as all my senses fail,
My body goes numb and turns ever so frail,
Drowning in your sorrow as I'm pushed beyond the bay,
Captured by this endless sea that led your love astray.






>Taui Ra

One Month To Go

Hello all! With the help of my very dear friend Lucas Harger, I have gotten this blog ready in order to keep you all up to date with my life in Uganda. I will be staying in Mukono, Uganda at a university. For 3 weeks of my stay I will be with a host family. I will also be doing an internship for social work that is going to be very taxing on me. Internet is never guaranteed simply because there are always power outages. I will hopefully update this everyday so you all know what life is like for me while I am gone!

Your prayers will be greatly appreciated as this will be a brand new experience for me and is going to be a roller coaster of emotions!


Thanks for your support! :-)

Taui Ra

Sometimes

Sometimes I falter and sometimes I fail,
Sometimes I stumble and sometimes I lose the trail.
Sometimes I crash and sometimes I burn,
Sometimes I feel myself take the wrong turn.
Sometimes I scream and sometimes I cry,
Sometimes I wish these wings would allow me to fly.
Sometimes I hurt and sometimes I wanna run,
Sometimes I feel myself slowly come undone.
Sometimes I tremble and sometimes I shudder,
Sometimes I wonder how it feels to be another
Sometimes I'm broken and sometimes I'm scared,
Sometimes my heart seems unprepared.
Sometimes I long for a strong embrace,
Sometimes I feel unworthy of your grace.
Sometimes I feel as if I'm in a constant fall,
Sometimes I feel so far away from anyone at all.
Sometimes I wonder where the light is up ahead,
Sometimes I wonder what I could have done instead.
Sometimes I beg and sometimes I plead,
Sometimes I know that you are all I need.
Sometimes I hate and sometimes I abuse,
Sometimes I do what I know I should refuse.
Sometimes I cower in a corner with fear,
Sometimes I wish someone were near.
Sometimes I know things aren't always as they seem,
Sometimes I know only happiness is a dream.

Run Away

Nothing is holding me back but myself, can feel myself leaning forward, but my feet won't follow my body.

I think most people call it a rut, I guess I can agree with that, but a rut...? It sounds so horrible...I'd rather say I'm stuck in a ditch, or perhaps I am just a little lost, but if I would just ask for directions then it would all work itself out. Maybe even I could say it was simply a flat tire and all I needed to do was replace it! Well, these would all be a lot easier to admit than to admit that little rut that I am slipping deeper and deeper into.

It almost seems like one of those dreams you have where someone is chasing you and you are running and running, but you never seem to be getting anywhere. You can see them closing in on you and every step they take moves them closer, while every leap you make does nothing. I want so desperately to run away, but my stupid feet followed by my legs won't let me. They stay planted and say, "Nope, don't move....just ask for directions already!"

"Broken I run to you for your arms are open wide, I am weary but I know your touch restores my life"